sad

2007-07-18T18:27:00.000+08:00

hehs:DDD
went out with jessica
pei her meet her ice-skating friends
it was like damn bored?
lawls.
dn she bought sunglasses
i said it was nice so she bought it
i guess so?
&the thing that took place is still bothering me
arghs!hope me&jess will be fine
okaye, thats all

&yup, lim yukee confiscated my hp!
whn i din use it at all
just that jessica look into my bag,
yeah she was looking at my hp's display pic
cher just took it without clarifying.

wth.previously,confiscated my SKIRT
now hp
WHAT'S NXT?
1 wk without hp i guess
confront him tmr!

2007-07-15T13:52:00.000+08:00

&yeah
im nt in a good mood
dont probe into my affair will ya?
& i really cant lose you

i hope.
someday..
i cn hold onto ur hands
and say i love you

LOVES the girls who went out with me ytd(:
&the guys ^^
had fun yeah
and i wasnt afraid of the horror movie
quite nice (:
but my sisters' shoutings made me more afraid rather
than the movie
hees,go out agn (:

2007-07-15T12:37:00.000+08:00

i promise you
you will nv be alone
i'll be the one around

but i will nv lose you
cos i will nv hv u
but at least we cn be friends forver alright?
i really hope he talks to me .
&sorry guys
i really just cant tell you who.
maybe i'll tell you whn its time

2007-07-13T20:37:00.000+08:00

://
called xinyi.
she's slping!
omg.lawls
hope she wake up soon eh(:

training absolutely sucks
all the cause of us.
argghs
punishments this and that
&juniors bullied me !
nt my birthday.they splashed me!
argghs.

2007-07-11T19:28:00.000+08:00

i seriously hope i will change my attitude problem
but dont treat me like a dog can you?
can you give me time?

give me freedom?
give me respect?
im not ur punching bag.
nor am i a push-over.
i tried so much.
its just meaningless.
dont ever make me the scapegoat
my emotions cant be controlled
im sorry
i dont mean it.
im alr down.
&yet you dont uds
&u kept rubbing in

I HATE PPL WHO CHEAT !
think its fun
to prank me?
&aft that act like nth happened?
im nw having mood swings
if you dont wish to reply my msn
dont even bother to ask me to meet you.
whn you need me you find me
when i seriously miss you& need you..
whr were you?

im just a pest
&unwanted girl
cant you try to understand me?
for just a bit?
i just dont love you no more.
i tried to tell myself.
but it seemed that you entered my mind
&nv left..

seems that evryone thinks that im like that
why bother to explain?
i hate explaining myself
&pls give me tiny respect ..
or maybe im not worth ur respect.

im just a fool
a idiot
a pest.
&i nv find me in ur mind or heart agn.
love aint perfect without you.
though what happened..
you will always be part of my memory&my future
and i nv let u off in my mind.
i guess i may vanish from ur mind

but i'll be thr no matter what happens

I may do nth well ,

but i love you well.

&yeah.. sorry guys for being so ..
you know?
attitude?
but pls give me respect too.
thanks

GOODbye&farewell

2007-07-09T20:44:00.000+08:00

went outing with xinyi&MYmushroom,jessica,huiyu,magdelene&weiling
&yeah,the guys...
went westmall,nth much
just eat eat eat!
lawls.
my mushroom bought some junks&she fed me
hoho
so lucky to have this mushroom!

&xiaoxin also!<3

xinyi i hope you cn see this!see,i do write ur name in my blog (:

hah!but eventually decided nt to go to her hse
pei her go westmall.
tmr thn do fnn?
hope tmr she can pei us : //

&yup,charmaine called
she told me to get well soon&tc(:
hope by thn i can go out with her
PSed her many many times : //
dint mean it.
sorry
&thn jessica called
&thn jesslyn MY MUSHROOM(:
&junjie TAN
loves mushroom
& thn dont know who called..ask for me then i ans
one guy :hello hello
i said hello
&he hung up.
rawr!so many ppl called
&yeah,i guess i did gave attitude to those who called
sorry
&mag called too
she was asking for the japan trip
if i cn go?
hope so .
well,dont ask.ask my parents.

i hate life.
i walk down the path alone.
envy of others.

2007-07-07T18:14:00.000+08:00

i just need someone badly

someone who will not crucify me
someone who just appreciate

i cant control my emotion
ytd i was down
&yet mrs toh rub in
thanks guys for cheering me up
hais im not SHILIAN
am just sad
&lonely girl

my tears just roll down my cheeks
i hate myself
&I HATE PPL WHO STEREOTYPE others
&biased towards me
i cried
showing that i know my mistake
yet toh kept on insulting me
i cried is nt a big matter .
but need she shout so loud
YOU THINK YOU CRY ?
cry for what
im alr vry moody

ovr someone&mrs toh still rubbed in

i vanish&all probs will be solved
thanks guys for cheering me up
im just a girl who cant control her emotion

lonely girl,always

2007-07-01T16:01:00.000+08:00

went for appointment
okay..not considered appointment.
waited for that doc for lonnggg time
it totally sucks
i nv scream or whine.
i cried.
bone bone pain bone when will it go away?
come again another day.
dont come again!go to someone else !=x

nth hurts more than my heart.being hurt by friends

being a goat.scapegoat.being hurt by those words

who cn understand my lonliness&&love?who appreciate?

suffering.i have to stop all activities&whatsoever?

bury myself in my school work
i wanna get him out of my mind
i dont want to
but i have to.
all i have to do is to let go.
im just too extra.
i shouldn't be in his life.
im not worthy for him
& i nv will....
goodbye,i shall vanish.

i love you&i will nv forget what you said
im nt worth for anyone

2007-06-30T22:06:00.000+08:00

shall update about camp first:D
laybeng was my camp partner
&yeah kayaking totally rocks :D

&tingjun had no partner

i felt totally remorseful

she's bengwei queen like wt laybeng said

why shud i feel sorry for her whn she wanted
to cause trouble?
wanted me to have no friends like her?
wanted me to be the one backstabbing when

i fucking said nth

forget it!its a waste of my time trying to tell her to
forgive laybeng or convince her that being friends is better

she kept on backstabbing my friends
i was angry,without saying .worse is she pointed at me!
i swear i did nt say anything.
making me the scapegoat.think im a goat is it

at night we were supposed to talk
me,meimun,esther,yuqing&laybeng

yeah i fell asleep cos the first day i did nt slp a wink

laybeng was like pinching me,hitting my leg,calling my name
but i was like a pig
everyone agreed
of course.im debbie okay.the lazy PIG
esther said i really have no feeling at all.
LOL true true (:

debbie MISSes the INSTRUCTORS.they are NICE ppl :DD

TODAY went out with xinyi,laybeng,baobei,chenlung,jinging&MUSHIE
& then we separated cos xinyi they all had to go
left the 3 of us
yeah we went causeway
MANY mushrooms
&then laybeng went hme
no more of her jokes or whatever DDx

esther&me shopped around jp
cos i tot she wanted to wait for her sis
so i pei her (:

monday monday!
will have to meet up with THEM
THEM:esther,mushroom,xinyi,laybeng,juting,meimun&the others i guess

yeah i promised xinyi that i'll go
kbox with them
but all depends on my mum!DDx
sorry.i'll try

&ya.was SUANED by laybeng&esther
ganged up & keep suaning me -.=
laybenggg!stop saying about me marrying that guy
YOU DARE TO SPEAD?=x

wedding sure invite you guys okays!
shall not forget
but nt now (:

both of them suaned me cos
1guy asked for my no
-.= den i was like.
ZZZzzzZ..
so paiseh&esther keep...
laybeng &esther was like.
keep laughing?hoho?
DDDDDDDDDx

2007-06-24T15:44:00.000+08:00

MUM just came in
& scold me for nth
im tired alr!

always probing into my affair

whn she came in i just close my friendster window
then she said what was that i close
show her
then she asked who was talking to me on msn
who's BENJAMIN

she's gonna BLOCK my msn
so i cant use
& i cant even DOWNLOAD
she says she can log into my msn

JUST that she knows i want my own privacy

when did she give me privacy?

YEAH YEAH
if she knew that why would she read my MSGs?
HANDphone msgs?

sorry guys

DO TAG often (:

i will still reply whn im online

miss me yeah?

& THANKS to stanley
he's lending me phone so whn im in camp
can msg (:

2007-06-24T14:33:00.000+08:00

tmr camp.
did nt pack at all
i lost the stupid packing list
laybeng emailed me the pcking list
thanks (:

jesslyn wants to partner with me

but laybeng dont wanna change )))))): DDDx
laybeng wants me right?
LOL

dont feel like going
though fever has gone
but still having flu
&now GASTRIC!
i did eat.
but not on the exact time.
cos i drank too much water
feel so bloated
no appetite

am only craving for MUSHroom

my mushie(:

miss miss jesslynMUSHROOM

& also JOSlaopo

sick sick

dont go camp.can?

2007-06-23T21:19:00.000+08:00

today had a date with estherhoBAOBEIS!
first,we went bugis
thn we headed for causeway
&lastly lot 1

i saw cynthia JIEjie
i heard her calling me meimei
she said i can go out bo jio
i saw mabelJIE
&BAOBEIS commented that she is chio
of course (: myjiejie!
& i saw miki,yeah she sure knows hw to make up
she had thick eyelashes&she used eyeliner

i dont know!rawr!
i saw yvonneMEI
yeah long time din contact
&i saw JUTING!she went jp!
she said hello!she cut her hair
nice nice!
she said sorry she watched movie with her friends&had dinner
so nv join us
& nt forgetting esther's jie

who is sharon (:
we window shopped at jp
went to pet shop
both of them were cute
not refering to the puppies or kitties

im refering to ESTHERHO&SHARON

they were so afraid of that FAT doggy
they hid behind me
im not afraid.
so proud =x
it wont harm us(:
its kinda cute!

i took bus30 hme
someone frm the backsit vomited
not vomited!
he's VOMITING&vomiting
it doesnt smells at all!

thanks to my blocked nose!

the guy beside the vomiting guy shout:FUCK!
okay okay nt shout
but i can hear him
&then the FUCK guy sat beside me
i mean the guy who shouted FUCK
he's cute!
he kept smiling&laughing
i kept giggling
dont know why
i just find it funny

go out with baobeis definitely better than blackbirdie
of cause
my BAOBEIS <3
indeed,absolutely love!

i want our 2nd date okay?

estherho remind me to lend you my long sleeves shirt
for camp!(:

& JESSLYN mushroom did call me (:

&remind myself

to EAT up that MUSHROOM.

im HUNGRY for her

RAWR!

i missmiss mushhie!<3333

2007-06-22T13:45:00.000+08:00

went hospital yesterday.
at 11plus?-.=
tot i will get well by night time
but it gets WORSER.
aunty tot that my thermometer SPOILT,
cos everytime i take my temp..it nv decrease or increase
BUT docter said im having fever 39.5degree

proves that my thermometer works well though

6medicines!

3 tablet type de,2syrup,1 to suck de.
it sucks to have bone injury,

it sucks more to have fever&cant go rc!

oh yeah,thanks joselin for sending me the get well soon thingy (:

hope i can meet you tmr if i get well !
&thanks leanna GONGgong!hee!will get well soon miss ya!
&yup junjie i will take care & drink lots of water

2007-06-21T13:53:00.000+08:00

i've been having weird dreams.
im hving this stupid fever
flu.
hw am i gonna attend rc agn?!
that time was my bone.
now fever!
-.=
guess senior will think im 'PONning' AGAIN
but i willl still go tmr (:

thank god yuqing called
she played the piano while talking to me!
nice
&then my mum pick up the phone & as usual
told me to hang up.she needs the phone.
5th time alr!
whn im talking to yingshuen she pick up the phone
while talking to jos
while talking to jj
wth.she wanna listen to who i talk to only
-.= pick up numerous time then tell me to hang

2007-06-20T15:25:00.000+08:00

in front part not included OUR secrets.
i was just disturbingq jesslyn.
too bored
Dx

crucified says:
you watching porn hur?

take so long to reply de
MuAckz....says
no la
MuAcKz.... says:
zhu
MuAcKz.... says:
i plae kongkong game
crucified says:
wah the PORN game name is kongkong,KONGMUSHROOM
crucified says:
hohoho!
crucified says:
siansiansisannnns
crucified says:
siansation
MuAcKz.... says:
go chat with standley la
crucified says:
he play game wif u
crucified says:
hw to chat wif him -.=
MuAcKz.... says:
he where got play game with mii?
crucified says:
lols
crucified says:
jkjk (: he also playing game
MuAcKz.... says:
then euu go play lor
crucified says:
nonono!i dont wana be extra yeah.threesome?-.=lawls..you TWO enjoy then ;D

[must be jesslyn+stanley playing tgt (: ]

2007-06-20T14:44:00.000+08:00

woke up at 1130
LOL
actually i could slp much longer
lucky yuqing called
if not i will be spending my whole afternoon on bed
but she called im still slping away ..then have to call her back

SAME old
routine everyday D: Dx )x .
cant go out!

2007-06-19T15:55:00.000+08:00

HP OFFICIALLY DEADDDD!
it sucks when you recieve ur msg today when ur friends sent it ytd
=//
it sucks whn u cant reply ur friends too ):
MINGHUAN is lame
send me a :-)..-.=
haha
thanks!always sending me morning&night without requesting me for a reply
(:
&SORRY CHARMAINE
i PSed u again
seen ur msg..
VERY LONELY..
sorry left you alone thr!
GUYS!i will still call you all whnever i can&msg me also
i will write down each&every one of your contacts
no worries!(:

sorry minghuan,stanley,charmaine,xiaowen,rinda,liming&jesslyn!
din reply!
&thanks stanley!
ok alr .
think few days will be btr

2007-06-18T19:00:00.000+08:00

i went for chinese physician cos of my bone INJURY!
since western doctor cant help,then papa forced me to go for chi physician=/
yeah that cost $50 for less than 5 mins?
the physician press&press so hard
pain pain PAIN PAIN PAIN
honestly,its sucks.
&the doc said i cant go for tkd & as well as ccas
SORRY CHARMAINE .
& SORRY DEAR DINO&ALL REDCROSS MEMBERS.

have to disappoint you guys but i will still join you guys&RUN RUN RUN(:
&i cant crack my bone alr!
have to get used to it =/
if i do,dont do vigorous exercise
yeah,perhaps i can run?
cos it dont involve my back bone (:
but im really like HALF-PARALYZED
even when i sneeze or cough its like nightmare.
HURT!

KAITING GOOD LUCK WHN URE IN CAMP
MUST TAKECARE&SLEEP WELL
DONT THINK TOO MUCH
&DONT MISS ME
I'LL MISS YOU!
FRI OUR MEETING IN MORNING ?(:
LOVES

2007-06-17T21:34:00.000+08:00

had fun with joselin..we went for church service tgt!
hopefully we can meet every sat & go for service tgt (:
yeah , hope by then my mum let me have some freedom
SATURDAY

saw one SHUAIGE today SUNDAY at je!
he wore white jacket
so cool
so cute
he looked like an angel!
okay okay!
thats the end then (:

OUR WEDDING PHOTO ;DD

DEAREST

2007-06-15T19:34:00.000+08:00

i cant get to sleep
i keep hearing that sound again.
the humming sound
the voice of a little young girl

whats wrong with me?!

whats wrong with her?

i did not offend any lil girl

the first time i heard that voice

was when i went to assumption english school
&i ASKED the person behind me did she made any humming?
if its a prank
why the girl INFRONT of me heard nth?

The humming is obviously loud&clear

& some private number keep calling me
i answered
its the voice again.

i said hello
even if its a ghost
at least say HELLO
wth!hum&hum
i was immobilized with fear
what is that thing trying to tell me?
im going insane
I SWEAR I HEARD THAT

ghost dont make phone calls..do they?

2007-06-14T18:45:00.000+08:00

committee meeting today (:

♥JOS
♥KAITING
♥yingshuen
♥jeslynn
& not forgetting leanna..who cant make it today :/ perhaps she's busy
jeslynn was super crazy about taking videos of us
guess i am not the only one obssessed in taking ppl's pic&videos!

yeah,jos& me was up to our tricks again.
we hide at one corner
we were like..missing.
cant find the rest& i was unfamiliar with the place.
jeslynn was like..where are the two lesbians! -.-

2007-06-12T19:34:00.000+08:00

much of naggings by mum today
even the loudest music cant help anymore
yeah,she got what she wanted.
i cant use com for the time being
last night chat with yuqing
this afternoon too (:

& debbie<3yuqingbestie

2007-06-11T15:34:00.000+08:00

IM PISSED OFF by my mum
first,you ground me for 1mth TO GO OUT
THEN,you controlled my freedom
sneaked behind me & see what was i doing ,read my HP msgs
YOU CLEARLY SAID YOU WONT READ WHEN YOU
CONFISCATED MY PHONE!
its MY PRIVACY
my msn history
whatever!
if your mouth dont feel tired,I AM!
MY EARS had enough of listening
you said i have the'DONT CARE' attitude in me
you gobble gobble gobble&blahblahblah
i just kept quite
when i am trying to defend my self &reason with you
you said im ARGUING

THROW CALENDER at me HUH?
YOU WANT ME TO WRITE WHEN I AM HAVING TUTIONN
EVERYTHING
I WROTE on the calender
NOT ENOUGH?
I WAS JUST INFORMED THAT I WONT HAVE TUITIONS ANYMORE
YOU STILL COMPLAINT THAT I DIN'T WRITE DOWN
WHEN I do my business,PEE,SLEEP,EAT or sms,WHAT TIME SMS WHO.YOU ALSO WANT ME TO WRITE??
you wanna lay hands off me?
BE MY GUEST
I HOPE YOU WASH YOUR HANDS OFF ME
i was listening all the while
just that i am AFRAID OF LOOKING AT YOU
okay?!
you dont let me go out
you want to know who my friends are
you want to know who i go out with
all my friends came to see you
still unhappy?
your excuses are all REASONS
MY REASONS ARE ALL EXCUSEs
if you wanna divorce go ahead
im sick of it.
im so sorry mum
i dont mean to not look at you
but .you should respect sometimes
sorry

2007-06-11T13:40:00.000+08:00

slept at 5am
woke up at 12noon
had a great time smsing jessica & sweetie wuyinq (:
jessica , waited for ur reply but no respond ,so i went to slp at 5am
hope you dont mind (:
sorry!
&pretty sorry for not replying in the morning
i dont wake up so early

im not an early riser (:

arghs.TKD at 8pm.bringing track shoes & my wushu sword
practically i forgotten my wushu pattern ,how do i perform for coach to see?
good luck to me & charmaine
will be accompanying charmaine to take her photos & birth cert
see,i am such a good friend
CHARMAINE (:
LOVE YA
DONT BE MOODY YEAH?
I YEARN FOR YOUR ETHUSIASM back yeah?

lovesloves

2007-06-10T21:24:00.000+08:00

went to je today
&whn i was about to step on the escalator,dropped my phone
then the worse part was,i just stood there,shocked & immobilized.
yeah my stupid phone broke into pieces
sim card,battery&hp cover.
okok,i admit i saw someone (:
he looked familiar
my eyes cant seem to look at other places except him
not what you're thinking!
thats why my hp falls into this state?
LOLS

&yeah saw ahmad
he sat beside me -.-
for tuition only yeah (:
&we crapped alot
haha!AHMAD got scolded for rocking the chair
i do rock my chair&of cos
i cant possibly sit thr and concentrate
im sure to move about
teacher did not scold me or point me out :)
guess he knows i wont break the chair
cos im not as heavy as AHMAD!
i guess we made alot of noise=x
ahmad's position is the 1st
but my math results are better (:

have to remind myself not to put my hp on my lap agn
cos i will forget about that & stand up
&then my phone cant take it anymore&DIE!
&dont get distracted!
This serve as a reminder not to get distracted

2007-06-08T14:26:00.000+08:00

got back my report bk.
results aint pleasing nor pleasant
i passed my over all
position:8
FAILED my chi.guess im giving up on chi. im so sorry to the teacher who taught me
i passed my math !(:

Comments:Debbie is a quiet pupil who needs to voice out her opinions or seek clarifications when in doubt,She has shown her willingness to make improvements on her weaknesses and is receptive to advice from her teacher. Main CCA Attendance:93%
(:
okay ms tan meant that i dont ask whn im in doubt -.-
my papa dont even read the comments

&he just blahblahblah

he dont mean what he said

i know its for my own good.

but getting good grades cos im in a low standard class?

this is seriously insulting okay!?
ok
i'll prove to you!

2007-05-26T14:16:00.000+08:00

shall bloq now:D was tired ytd =((went for TKD last nyt,was forced by dear charmaine,this was what she said in the msg:hahaz cannot must go!cus we skip one whole week last week man..that fierce coach say must consistent-.-YEAH i admit that whole week we kinda ponned?

and yupps!juting,meimun,estherBAOBEIIS came to my hse ytd^^we had loads of fun.The gang tgt agn?we watched 'sex is zero'.yeah nice movie.i <3>dont leave me out =)LOLS.i wasn't meaning the err hum part.OR maybe i was>.
THANKS guys for keepinq me company and eating up my potato chips.LOLS we finished the whole potato.JUTING was damn hungry,asked her if she wanted anythinq else my aunt can cook for her.BUT she insisted on potato.<3 potato.

and yeah,SO SORRY estherBAOBEII ,JoselineLAPO,mervynDIdi,adriandidi& charmaine.Initially decided to attend church service with LAOPO,in the end i told laopo i cant.Esther बोबेई,nxt thurs u say u wanna go out?i wont be in s'pore=(WILL miss you guys.i'll try my best((:CHARMAIne,i will find a way to go out with you agn^^sorry tt ytd i cant go watch movie with ya.

promise of friends <3333

2007-05-24T19:52:00.001+08:00

THE PROMISE FOREVER

XINYI I STILL TREASURE OUR FRIENDSHIP<33xiaoaiai ;}

i'll still treat u as my friend

2007-05-24T18:41:00.000+08:00

FINALLY, i went for school ((=
laybenq said i zhong yu wanted to come lerhs (she miss me huh?)
say i ps tingjun,she's been lonely for the 2 days
cos i was sick?sorry tingjun ^^
CRYSTAL,I HOPE YOU GET WELL SOON((: stay stronq.come back to school and abuse me agn if u wish u can get well:DDDDD

and yeah,lesson was damn BORED.i slept during EK'S lesson.She teach and teach and teach,
I slp and slp and slp.yeah and she remarked tat only 7ppl in class are keen to listen-.-cos the others are either chased out by ek,if not slping in class.LOLs.seems that im still paying attention though(:HATE it whn ek cor me DERRbbie.-.-if nt DIBBBIE.her pronunciation sucks.The way she l0ok at me really pissed me off,gave me an eerie feelinq.

yupps,i was too engrossed in my dream that i didn't kn0w it was alr math lesson!my fav:D.i was still in lalaland,lucky tingjun woke me up =)yeah i still continue to slp then.
YEAH COS I WAS SERIOUSLY MISSING HIM &

THINKING OF HIM AND LAUGHING TO

MYSELF,YEAH I GO CRAZY WHENEVER I THINK OF

HIM,I ADMIT it=))

^^just had an enjoyable conversation with MEIMUN on the phone((:sorry i had to have my meal,so i had to hang up.TALK to you agn tmr =)love ya

arghhs i cant update my bloq as often as now,cos im
stucked in my CURFEW:/ANW,thanks mom for still
giving me the privilege to use the com.GUYS miss me =))1 more day till holi comes

EVERYONE TAKECARE,loves

2007-05-23T13:18:00.000+08:00

I DID NOT ATTEND SCHOOL AGN)))); miss ESTHERbaobeiis&HIM<33

AWWS.SORRY ESTHERBAOBEIIS));.wasnt feelinq quite well td.yeah,i still rmbr ur tie ((= i asked my didi to pass to my BAOBEIIS((=

THANKS adrian (:

sorry di, i broke my promise agn

t0o LAZY&tired

misses evryone^^

everyone was like asking me if my mum or dad let me
continue to slack at home=x.YEAH,think so.((=why would they bother so much?exams are ovr (=im good gurl aft all,i stayed at hme.dont bother about ytd.JUST went to meet friends to take forms and pass things to friends^^

welcoming the upcoming june holi
evryone WORK HARD(=
im full tym GUAIIKIIA;}

=((

2007-05-22T11:02:00.000+08:00

todae nv attend school.sorry didi,i promised i'll go school,but i did wake up at 600.SMS tingjun tell her tt im nt meeting her.dn went to orh orh cos jiejie t0o tired.MervynDI,adrianDI,stanley,tingjun,YUQINGbestie,jesslynGF,,kaiting,qianhui&daniel THANKS for ur concerns<3 SORRY:yuqing,mervynDI,adrianDI,tingjun&stanley for nt answerinq ur calls.sorry stanley cnt buy things for u at canteen.chisenq 2days nv come also.LOLS.missing my friends,although its only less than half day im nt in school-.-LTR im gonna go sku agn!yays!meetin friends.maybe,cos he's sick dont wan him to come all the way here.want him to rest.hope nicholas's stomach pain will go away,nvr come agn =)).

and yeah,i went back to school.(nearby coffeeshop)with JOSELINElaopo,i've done my duty as her husband(accompanied her for lunch)^^ 4 TEACHERS SAT BESIDE ME-.-.LUCKY they dont regconise me.THANKS jos.thanks daniel,my lovely cow/bearbear.I <3cows.NOONE TRULY CARED FOR THIS FAILURE,ONLY THESE GUYS:ADRIANDIDI,DANIELBRO,JOSLAOPO,YUQINGBESTIE&QIANHUI.SO SORRY IF I'VE LEFT ANYONE OUT OR think you wont be liking me much either.im t0o thick-skinned,you wont even think of givin this failure a damn shit?if HE cared,or even pretend to,i would hve been contented.hw i wished he would talk to me,treat me as his meimei as he used to.hope he cn concentrate on his o level and achieve great results,meimei hv faith in u((= SUPPORT U FOREVER.GUYS,sorry for being emo these days.really am damn stressed up. zw said SIGHING is my hobby?cos i keep HAISIng?so sorry,i shud have pissed u off

charmaine :DDDD

2007-05-21T16:32:00.001+08:00

went out with charmaine ytd.ORCHARD is the place ((; went into a shops tt sells baq,its was disgraceful as we wanted the gurl to take this and that as we wanted to try out those baqs.and yeahs.POOR gurl.we said NOnono i want the other baq.LOLS we went into abt more than 3 tyms.sorry to the poor gurl who served us ))));YUMMY pasta filled our hunqer,our dinner(x yeahs i hv a small appettite yet i wanted to bet with charmaine i cn finish it cos she reminded me:DEBBIE u sure ure gonna finish em all?lols i said with determination so we did nt bet.of cos i did nt finish my meal,she said:DEBBIE i shud hv bet with u lahs!LOLS oki^^dere's still a nxt tym.i accompanied char to buy her clothes.She tried quite a few clothes and shorts,hmms..but in the end she bought only one pair of jeans that i recommended ((((= THANKS CHARMAINE.<33>.I LORRVE SKULLS!thats it ;} awws im decent gurl gurl(x im not ahlians,dont wish to be one or think of beinq one & dont judge me cos of the way i dress PUH-lease.

fucking failure

2007-05-20T10:28:00.000+08:00

FAILURE doesnt wants to do anythinq,SHE dont feel anything.She dont know what to do or what to say to make life better.i dont feel like saying anything,cos my words arent for you guys to believe,ain't RIGHT?all i wanted was to love him.Now,her friends are making life really miserable for her.im left out,the whole world is lying to me,he fooled me.im such a fuckinq failure i cant keep him by my side.All my friends ventinq their angers on me.hais.i dont wanna pick a fight with my friends,but do they even think of that when they say that of me?you guys know it well what you have FUCKING SAID.i cried cos im hurt,i cried cos u guys said happily while leaving me in this fuckinq shit.im nv gonna trust anyone agn.But still , i love him and trust him.im losinq everyone.im losing myself.going for chi tuition soon,but i failed my chi,i've let her down.wanna give up on my chi.thanks mdm koh for ur patience.sorry i've disappoint u agn n agn.Its my loss for nt paying attention.sorry if i've speak sarcasm,but if u r angry.im truly DISAPPOINTED by you and friends.sorry if i've offended anyone

2007-05-19T10:53:00.000+08:00

Ytd trng,i FAILED as usual,my voice aint loud enouqh,cos im hving sorethroat.Yeah,this is nt an excuse but it really hurts whn i shout the command.HAishs.den radiah maam asked me to tell the ppl who are nt in proper attire to run.Of course, i did that,i told the juniors,i hope tt they will be in their proper attire in the future cos i dont wan them to tire themselve out.and puh-lease i did nt fuckinq said i wanna be the chairman,i was just usinq it as an example,and no way i would even think of having tt chance.Im NORT so thick-skinned!As lonq i can do a part in Red Cross,i dont mind doinq anything.MY aim is to be welfare/first aid?Moreover, i did badly.This damn fuckinq sorethroat,whn will it end?im such a failure

hees^^

2007-05-15T14:49:00.000+08:00

0ne more paper to go which is tmr's FNN and thats the end ;}chemistry was hard.yeah.DUH!i did nt study at all,shud i say i nvr even brinq bks hme?Shaun always borrow stationary frm me during examination,and i passed to him,whnevr he passed back,he threw that eraser towards my table,but it jus flew back to his place=.=That eraser of mine LOVEd him,his aiminq is bad =X.He made funny movements,that made me laugh,he t0o laughed,teacher was confused at that moment giving us that look.Aft sch0ol,ting and me went to bubble tea shop,buy STRAWBERRY snowshake.Then,two malay girls came.They keep staring at me,and of cos i stared back=X.She said;Girl you l0ok so cute like a doll doll eyes so BIG.I buried my face in my hands,feelinq so shocked and paiisehhs.I managed to force a faint smile,she asked agn:you which mother arhs?LOL.does it concern my mother who gave me this face?hees thanks anywae ^^Aft that went to jasmine mei's house with tinqjun,and yeah,jasmine's doggie likes me alot?she kept followinq me n lickinq me.THAT doqqie is DAMN cute =/which made me remember my doggie.hais ))x